Pillar

by Rainbow Chan

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    Rainbow Chan’s sophomore album Pillar on 12” orange opaque 150g vinyl including lyrics sheet and download card.

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03:41
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04:08
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03:25
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03:25
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02:50
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02:58
10.
02:18

credits

released June 28, 2019

All songs written, performed and produced by Rainbow Chan
Verse on 'Love Isn’t Easy' by MOLDY
Mixed by Matthew Hadley
Mastered by Becki Whitton
Additional vocal recording on tracks 5, 6, 9, 10 by David Trumpmanis
Voice memo of Lull performed by Rainbow, mum Chui Ping, and aunty Choi Lin, recorded in Lung Yeuk Tau, Hong Kong, 2018

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Photography by Hyun Lee
Styling by Al Joel
Hair and makeup by Maggie Wu
Design by Craig Stubbs-Race

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Track Name: Oblivion
We don’t need to name what we know we share
Running after words will lead us nowhere.

Feel it in our bodies,
It will arise with the sweetest clarity.
The push and pull between us -
Is that thing love
In our changing boundaries?

We don’t need to name what we know we share
Running after words will lead us nowhere.

Tried to give it shape and form
But talking is well-worn
With empty words we say over and over again.
So why don’t we just sink into oblivion instead?

Oblivion, oblivion, oblivion.
Track Name: CSR
I like the fact your words can walk,
The way your speech has weight and thought.
I like how you enquire, ask questions,
And take the time to stop and listen.

雖然我哋識咗好少時間
但係我哋
我哋
雖然我哋識咗好少時間
但係我哋
我哋
撻着...

La, la, la

I like your point of view
It’s rare to see a boy
So in touch with his feelings.
I like how you articulate
Your needs and desires.
I want to give all of me
To all of you.

雖然我哋識咗好少時間
但係我哋
我哋
雖然我哋識咗好少時間
但係我哋
我哋
撻着...

La, la, la
Track Name: Pillar
Can’t wait to grow up
You want to be bigger
Buy all the cool stuff
With money you save.
Well now that you’re grown up
You long to be smaller
Swallowed by worry
We rush to the grave.

Where will we go?
How do we fall down?

Down, down, down,
Down, down, down.

Where will we go?
How do we fall down?

Down, down, down.
Down, down, down.
Down, down, down.
Down, down, down.

I used to be a pillar.

Down, down, down.
Down, down, down.

I used to be a pillar.

Down, down, down.
Down, down, down.
Track Name: For A Long Time
I’ve been waiting for this for a long time.
But now I’ve got you.
Track Name: Love Isn't Easy ft. MOLDY
Don't sugar coat our troubles, if we do we're in denial.
I know we disagreed but baby can we work this out?
I'm mad at you, you're mad at me.
Our words are full of fire but I still want you.

Are you here with me or is your mind
somewhere else, preoccupied with yourself?
What about my tears?
I don't need you to be the sky,
just try to see through my eyes.
Then you'll know that nothing comes easy.

Gotta let you know,
oh baby,
愛並不容易

Love isn't easy.

Are you still with me or does your mind feel feverish?
Why're you so defensive?
I got my own fears too.
I don't need you to be the sun
but the weight can't be held by one.
If that's too difficult then you gotta go.

부셔져 망가져 가지
술병 깨버려
어디론가 들어가
시야에서 사라져야 하지
시야에서 쓰러져야 하지
난 너의 속으로 들어가
샅샅히 뒤져야 니 마음을 알지
다 털어 버려도 확실한건
완벽 하지 못 할껄 알아서 좆까는거야

이미 불 같은 넌 얼음
번거로움들을 안은 속은 타고
헛 걸음 신은 알어 나를
하루 24시간 동안 태운 시간 24시간을

가만히 앉어봐 잡아 내
가만히 바라봐 잡아 내
가만히 있어봐 잡아 내
시간 낭비는 참 좆같아
어차피 어제 같은 내일도 똑같을거야 다 오늘같아
어차피 숨 쉬는 곳곳에 있는
나를 지울수는 없을거같아

Gotta let you know,
oh baby,
愛並不容易

Love isn't easy,
but if you still want me,
we can work this out.
Track Name: Melt
I can’t help it.
I can’t help myself
When I see you in this light
I melt, melt, melt.

Living in a state of vulnerability,
Disarm me.
I’m struggling to
Keep it together,
Keep it together
upon new ground.
Fade into your gaze,
I’m practising my new name.
I can’t fight back
If my tongue is tied
With a silent shame.

I can’t help it.
I can’t help myself
When I see you in this light
I melt, melt, melt.
I can’t help it.
I can’t help myself
When I see you in this light
I melt, melt, melt.

I can’t help it.
I can’t help myself
When you see me in this light
I melt, melt, melt.
I can’t help it.
I can’t help myself
When I see you in this light
I melt, melt, melt.
Track Name: A Horizon
It feels so good
To finally be
A body without a question.

No where are you from?
No how do you spell that?
You call me by the first name I knew.

No need to explain.
We share a horizon
It finally feels I’m home.
Track Name: Gaosuwo
我一直都知道,你從不在乎我
但我等著你 牽我的手
你的擁抱 困擾著我思緒
告訴我, 有沒有愛過我?

有沒有愛過我?
有沒有愛過我?

我一直都知道, 你從不在意我
但我解不開 心中的苦
你的味道 留恋在我心底
告訴我, 有沒有愛過我?

有沒有愛過我?
有沒有愛過我?
Track Name: Roof
A sun baked roof
Bears witness
To the lives of those
Who sleep below

A sun baked roof
Has seen me cry
In the winter cold
As I let you go.

It’s kept me warm,
It’s kept me safe,
It’s even sung for me on rainy days.

It knows I lie alone
With the weight of you
In all its absence
soaking in blue.

A sun baked roof
Bears witness
To the lives of those
Who come and go.

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